” Let us hold firmly to the hope we claim to have. The One who promised is faithful”
Hebrews 10:23
(full moon at san francisco bay)
Iimbak para sa Hulyo, 2008
Jiu (九)
9 is my favorite number at the moment………wink!
9 favorite movies (in random)
9 things that i do in the morning
my morning prayer
go to the bathroom
read Our Daily Bread/devotion
get blood for cbc/temp/bp
call/text “someone” to say good morning
breakfast
take medicine
pt/ot
go online (in case i’m feeling better and not sleepy/dizzy)
9 things that i do when i’m bored
i sleep 
i play crisis core (final fantasy VII) or gran turismo 4 in my psp
i look at “someone’s” pictures/slideshow on my laptop and day dream that we are together
i listen to the music of hillsong australia
i sit near the window and observe things outside
i read a good book
i go online to update my blog and to check my mails
i count female sheeps (ha ha ha)
i go to either the mall or the park
9 things that i do before i go to sleep
i put my mobile on silent mode
i take my vitamins/medicines
i fix my bed
i brush my teeth
i take a shower
i fix myself (i wear either a boxer or pajama or jersey and a shirt)
i call/text “someone” to say goodnight
sometimes i go online
i say my good night/thank you prayer to the Lord
9 favorite songs at the moment
miracles by kenny lattimore
i was born to love you by eric carmen
who am i by casting crowns
always be my baby by david cook
fairy tale by michael wang
when God made you by newsong and natalie grant
you bring me joy by anita baker
wonder by steve mcpherson
magnificent by tulele of hillsong australia
9 favorite cartoon/anime character
jamie robinson of voltes five
the sailor man
the cookie monster
erica of daimos
bugs bunny
tifa of final fantasy VII
son gohan
spiderman
stripperella
9 fave scents
luciano soprani
Dolce & Gabbana Cologne for men
polo sport
axe phoenix
cool water
johnson’s baby cologne regular
joop jump
nenuco cologne
crave by ck
9 favorite gifts
9 is happy! 9 is just getting better!
getting impatient….
i still don’t have the results of my bone marrow biopsy/aspiration and i’m getting impatient. i can’t help but worry about a lot of things.
the results are of such great importance as it will determine the next step for my sct. if there’s no leukemic cells present in the marrow then we proceed with the transplant, but if its the other way around then i’ll have to go back to chemo. (sigh sigh sigh).
our bone marrow is a soft spongy tissue found inside the larger bones in our body. they contain stem cells that turn into blood cells. biopsy is a process of removing a tissue sample from the body for examination. aspiration, on the other hand, is the drawing of the liquid portion of the bone marrow by a hollow needle. in my case, several samples were taken so there were painful unexplainable stings that traveled down to my legs.
i hope i get the results early next week and i’m praying that its a good one so i could proceed with my sct. please do keep me in your prayers as i go through this stage of my treatment.
here are some photos during my bone marrow biopsy/aspiration.
you bring me joy
You bring me joy
When I’m down
So much joy
When I lose my way your love comes smiling on me
I saw your face
And then I knew
We would be friends
I was so afraid, but your arms, they’d say ‘come to me’
So I’d say to you
“Can we talk for a while?”
You’d say “alright”
When you love me, I smile
I feel your hands and you feel mine
You bring me joy
You bring me joy
Don’t go too far away
If I can’t see your face, I will remember that smile
But can this be right
Or should we be friends
I get lonely sometimes and I’m mixed up again
‘Cause you’re the finest thing I’ve seen in all my life
You bring me joy
My joy, my joy
I believe this is gonna be what you want it to be
I just love you, I just love you, can’t you see
That you’re the best I’ve seen in all my life
You bring me joy
My joy… you’re my joy
My joy… my, my joy
Thank you, baby, thank you, baby
I just love you, baby
When I lose my way, your love comes smiling on me
you bring me joy/anita baker
standing beside me
LORD, sometimes, I feel like my world is getting smaller and my burdens are getting bigger. Every time this kind of feeling comes and overwhelms me, I can’t help but wonder on how long must I wait for that moment where I would no longer need to wear a mask, no more needles, no more chemotherapy, no more leukemic blast, no AML—– I am clean, healthy, leukemia-free for the rest of my life!
But i just realized that all throughout this journey You’ve carried me through and You’ve shown me that Your promises are real, Your love is never ending and Your grace is sufficient. You’ve shown me countless times that these are all but part of Your great plan for me. And the only thing that You want is for me to trust you and keep my faith.
Thank you Lord. I’m standing on your promises. And it feels great to know that I’m not standing in this place alone…..YOU are here……i know…….You are standing beside me.
( view from the attic, bernal heights)
of stc prep and birthdays
Preparation for my stem cell transplant officially started last week!
I’m done with my bone marrow biopsy and although the final analysis won’t be ready until early next week, my oncologist informed me that the initial pathology review was very encouraging. Although the procedure went well, I was “glued” to my bed for 2 days as my hip was sore. (my marrow samples were extracted from my right rear hip bone).
Good thing i was back home in time for Mommy’s birthday last July 14. We had dinner at Lime Tree, a restaurant that serves Southeast Asian Cuisine.
Because of my “restricted diet” I wasn’t able to try their famous roti pratha and curry noodle. I just had a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice, a very small serving of tofu and mushrooms in olive oil and a half serving of potato cake. Bitin. Bitin. 
Cheers to the best Mom in the world! Happy Birthday Mommy! Words are not enough to express my gratitude for your selfless love and devotion. I know we’ve been through a lot and your strength and faith are keeping the family intact. I can’t thank God enough for giving you to me. I love you so much Mommy.
The next day was another big day as my “baby bro” Godo celebrated his 20 plus birthday (he he he he). we went to fisherman’s wharf for lunch, went window shopping (he he he) at pier 39 and then visited the bay aquarium.
As expected, the place was full people and the restaurants are on-SRO. I think we waited for almost 45 minutes for a table. Nevertheless, I really had a great time exploring the area.
Although the trip has practically drained my energy I felt really great because somehow I am now at a “normal” place, living and moving as a “normal” person. I’m experiencing the crowd again, appreciating God’s creation and enjoying a great time with my family. (I’m missing someone though, sigh).
some pictures at the bay aquarium:
Today, I have a scheduled spinal tap at 11am and more tests are scheduled the coming days so please keep me in your prayers. Thank you to those who made comments in some of the entries. I really appreciate it and It really lifts my spirit. God bless all of you. (I’ll answer them all next time promise!)
As I always say…..the journey from brokenman to betterman….continues!! aja! aja! aja!
quietly
空气里躲着什么
Kong qi li duo zhe shen me
有点浪漫的心动
You dian lang man de xin dong
我偷偷看你
Wo tou tou kan ni
你也偷偷看我
Ni ye tou tou kan wo
世界上多了什么
Shi jie shang duo le shen me
好像变得很不同
Hao xiang bian de hen bu tong
站在你身边
Zhan zai ni shen bian
这一切都好宽阔
Zhe yi qie dou hao kuan kuo
我还在等着你
Wo hai zai deng zhe ni
静静的爱我
Jing jing de ai wo
只要有你陪我
Zhi yao you ni pei wo
静静的就足够
Jing jing de jiu zu gou
你也在等着我
Ni ye zai deng zhe wo
静静的温柔
Jing jing de wen rou
就这样手牵手
Jiu zhe yang shou qian shou
静静的看着天空
Jing jing de kan zhe tian kong
心里面藏着什么
Xin li mian cang zhe shen me
你只想要让我懂
Ni zhi xiang yao rang wo dong
原来我的梦
Yuan lai wo de meng
也就是你的梦
Ye jiu shi ni de meng
哦
Wo~
纸条上写了什么
Zhi tiao shang xie le shen me
我好想要听你说
Wo hao xiang yao ting ni shuo
让字字句句
Rang zi zi ju ju
充满我们的笑容
Chong man wo men de xiao rong
永远要记得那天彼此许下的承诺
Yong yuan yao ji de na tian bi ci xu xia de cheng nuo
瞬间点亮的火花
Shun jian dian liang de huo hua
是我们的拥有
Shi wo men de yong you
静静的手牵手
Jing jing de shou qian shou
是最简单的梦
Shi zui jian dan de meng
jing jing de (silently)/harlem yu
(woh hen siang nian mi.see wang woh men poo chiow tsai chian miyan.Man tsow)
He said….
“I am the Lord your God. I am holding your hand, so don’t be afraid. I am here to help you” ——Isaiah 41:13
far away
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore
On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
far away/nickelback
needing you is like a wound that gets deeper in time…i miss you so much…so much.
