what’s up with me….

i have fever. it has been coming in and going out for a few days now and i’m getting used to the chills, shivers and tylenol. the doctor said this condition is quite “normal” for this phase so i just have to be more patient  😦

my immune system is still not normal so my ID (infectious disease) specialist prescribed 3 anti-infection medicines (anti-viral, anti-fungal, antibiotics) to help my body cope up with the vulnerabilities. my latest blood culture test revealed a negative result, meaning there’s no known infection present. i find it really weird since fever is an obvious sign of infection. again, the doctor said the condition is “common” for this phase and they call it “neutropenic fever”.

my ANC or absolute neutrophyl count was up to .4 today (yesterday it was .2) and my monocytes is up from 55 to 68%. today, i had a bowl of organic green salad and apples for breakfast and lunch. dinner was vegetable soup, a piece of banana and a pear.

i’ll have my spinal tap on wednesday and i’m praying that i’ll have complete remission this time. i’m trying to be positive about it, trying to be cool but often times i can’t stop the negative thoughts from creeping in. i’ve been in this treatment for quite a long time now and i feel very very tired already.

today, i found strength and comfort in a song called “wait” by steven curtis chapman. too bad youtube doesn’t have a video of it yet. you can still listen to the song, though, by hitting this link and then choose song # 7.  the lyrics of the song can be found below:

You wonder when the Lord will renew the strength within you;
You wonder how, how can He use you as you are.
Seems like you’re wasting precious time,

But then a voice comes to remind you (to wait)

Wait, wait, wait on the Lord;
You will understand in time.
Why you must wait,
Wait, wait, wait on the Lord;
Yes He hears you,
But for now you must wait on the Lord

Answers come slowly to your cries of desperation,
But time is His tool, teaching the greatest lessons learned;
So let Him do His work in you,
And watch the miracles come true as you (wait).

And He wants you to know that
They that wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They will rise up with wings as eagles,
They will run, not get weary.
They will walk and not faint;
That’s a promise to us when we (wait).

i’ve been reading some of the comments and its really lifting my spirit up. thank you for making my “journey” bearable. words are not enough to express  my appreciation. God bless all of you. please keep those prayers coming!

the journey from brokenman to betterman continues!!!!!

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  1. 1

    ladyracer said,

    prayers and hugs for you…

    lex: thanks ladyracer. sweet of you 🙂

  2. 2

    dec said,

    thanks for the update cuz pero ano ka ba naman may fever ka na nga eh nag blog ka pa. sus talaga. anyway, u take care. take a rest and magpagaling ka na. miss na talaga kita pramis. love yah!

    lex: oo nga eh tigas ng ulo ko 🙂 miss you too cuz!

  3. 3

    etzhel said,

    Do continue SmAdBk…
    You’re always in heat lately huh?
    Smile for me MssB wink wink!

    lex: i am and you know why he he he 🙂 wink!

  4. 4

    julia said,

    hi lex. sino date mo sa valentine? you asked someone out na ba or someone asked you out already? lol! kung wala pa you know where to contact me. 🙂 you take care and get well soon.

    lex: thanks julia 🙂 God bless.

  5. 5

    pia said,

    tsi, ang ganda ng song 🙂 hope wala na fever mo. glad to see you smiling kanina (so corny ng jokes mo!) hugs!

    lex: thanks 🙂 may fever pa onti

  6. 6

    yei said,

    god bless biggie bro! always praying for you!

    lex: God bless sis! miss you.

  7. 7

    lou said,

    hang in there wafu…you’ll have complete remission soon…hapi balentayms pala mah friend…

    lex: thanks lou. hapi balentayms din 🙂

  8. 8

    claire said,

    hi lex.thanks for this update. God bless sa spinal tap mo. stay positive. i’m always praying for you. take care.

    lex: hi claire. thanks. take care too 🙂

  9. 9

    repah said,

    ei brokenman.. wag kng mag-alala sa fever mo mganda yan, sign daw yan na lumalaban daw yung mga cells ntin s katawan pag my sakit tayo.. ibig sbhin.. lalakas ka.. kc my mga soldiers ka… basta… kya mo yan.. pagpreprey kita… kaw pa.. malkas ka ky lord.. you can do it..

    lex: salamat repah. God bless 🙂

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