Sorry for waking you up so early this morning. I really don’t feel complete without seeing you yawning, feeling your body stretching against mine and hearing your voice which soothes the innermost part of me. And that’s how I always want my mornings—-always with you.
I want to believe that in this world of great compromise I’m blessed because I have you. You came at the time when I was practically nearing the end of my line. I was just going with the flow, carrying with me a pint of hope that I would be able to survive my AML. I was ready to die.
Having you, being with you—-it has opened up new perspectives, it gave me new hope, a new beginning and another reason to fight and to live. It was a difficult journey but you remained holding my hand, seeing me through my treatments and making sure that I’m okay. You were with me in my most difficult times—chemotherapy, bone marrow, spinal tap—- and in my happiest—-remission, celebration of life, 3o++ birthday. You are indeed a blessing and you are my joy.
I know the uncertainties, especially now that my scheduled sct is getting nearer. Thousands of thoughts are swimming in my head. Although my hopes are high and I’m trusting God fully, more often than not, my being human takes over the whole of me. If I know what the future holds for us, I swear, I’ll take you there myself. But He’s the only one who knows what lies ahead. He holds our lives in His hands and we may never understand His plans for now but rest assured that He will only want the best for us and that He will be with us every step of the way.
For now, all I wanna do is spend every moment of my life with you, to share everything I have with you, to let you feel all that is within my soul, all that is within me —–before time runs out on me.
Thank you for loving me. You not only made my world a better place, but you’ve enhanced my life, making it more worth living. You’ve made me a betterman. Thank you for sharing this journey with me. Mahal na mahal kita.
Happy thanksgiving! I couldn’t thank God enough for giving you to me!