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what i need now…..

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quietly

空气里躲着什么
Kong qi li duo zhe shen me

有点浪漫的心动
You dian lang man de xin dong

我偷偷看你
Wo tou tou kan ni

你也偷偷看我
Ni ye tou tou kan wo

世界上多了什么
Shi jie shang duo le shen me

好像变得很不同
Hao xiang bian de hen bu tong

站在你身边
Zhan zai ni shen bian

这一切都好宽阔
Zhe yi qie dou hao kuan kuo

我还在等着你
Wo hai zai deng zhe ni

静静的爱我
Jing jing de ai wo

只要有你陪我
Zhi yao you ni pei wo

静静的就足够
Jing jing de jiu zu gou

你也在等着我
Ni ye zai deng zhe wo

静静的温柔
Jing jing de wen rou

就这样手牵手
Jiu zhe yang shou qian shou

静静的看着天空
Jing jing de kan zhe tian kong

心里面藏着什么
Xin li mian cang zhe shen me

你只想要让我懂
Ni zhi xiang yao rang wo dong

原来我的梦
Yuan lai wo de meng

也就是你的梦
Ye jiu shi ni de meng


Wo~

纸条上写了什么
Zhi tiao shang xie le shen me

我好想要听你说
Wo hao xiang yao ting ni shuo

让字字句句
Rang zi zi ju ju

充满我们的笑容
Chong man wo men de xiao rong

永远要记得那天彼此许下的承诺
Yong yuan yao ji de na tian bi ci xu xia de cheng nuo

瞬间点亮的火花
Shun jian dian liang de huo hua

是我们的拥有
Shi wo men de yong you

静静的手牵手
Jing jing de shou qian shou

是最简单的梦
Shi zui jian dan de meng

jing jing de (silently)/harlem yu

(woh hen siang nian mi.see wang woh men poo chiow tsai chian miyan.Man tsow)

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panic button = on

one humid day

crowded train

perspiring

chilling

trembling

difficulty breathing

chest pains

dizzy

throwing up

emergency room

capitol medical center

170608

please take care…..i care for you so much

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My Heart and Soul

The years they come and go
And change will come I know
You won’t be there, my heart and soul

With every time and place
But time cannot erase
The smile that lines your face
As you gaze in mine, you will always shine

And you will always be
An angel making sure I care
The memory, that’s always there
Your dreams won’t die, they live inside of me

You know you’ll always be
My heart and soul

The years roll on and on
I looked and you were gone
I miss you so, my heart and soul

The years can make you wise
Now I finally realize
That if I just close my eyes
I can see you there, and the love we share

And you will always be
A dream so real, that cannot die
A trusting faith that lets me fly
A love so strong that just belong to me

You know you’ll always be
My heart and soul

Oh, an angel making sure I care
The memory that’s always there
You’ll always be my heart and soul

My Heart and Soul/Stephen Bishop

(please keep the memories; please keep me in your heart; carry me with you; i want to be where you are…. even beyond this life..)

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when will this end?

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i’m getting tired of having “needles” for breakfast 😦

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the waiting continues

i was supposed to get the result of my spinal tap yesterday but a few hours before my scheduled appointment, my oncologist  called and he told me that the pathologist still hasn’t reach a conclusive and definitive findings as to whether the blast cells found in the sample are normal immature white cells or abnormal or leukemic cells. my doctor said the pathologist requested that she be given  some of the slides from my original bone marrow biopsy for comparison and analysis. looks like i have to wait for two more days.  😦

i was told that if the test would remain inconclusive i have no other choice but to repeat the spinal tap. or if the pathologist will eventually conclude that the cells are indeed leukemic cells then there’s an immediate need for me to undergo a more extensive chemo, 3 days per week for 3 months and then depending on the progress, i’ll undergo stem cell transplant which will be my last resort. but the thing is: my oncologist is worried that my frail body would not be able to withstand another round of extensive chemo since i had 3 chemo sessions already. he’s afraid that my organs would not be able to take the repercussions and eventually they would fail and kill me. on the other hand, if i don’t undergo another round of chemo (assuming i still have leukemic cells), i won’t last longer than a year. this is so depressing.

on the lighter side, if the pathologist concludes that the blast cells were normal immature white cells it means i don’t have leukemic cells anymore and i will be in remission. i will then undergo a month of consolidation therapy to prepare me for the stem cell transplant.

i don’t know what to feel right now. my head is full of “what if’s”. i know He holds my life in His hand and i just have to accept His will and trust His plans for me, but then, this is easier said than done. nevertheless, I will keep on trusting Him and will continue to wait on Him. i know He will carry me through, He will not leave me nor forsake me.

thank you for your unconditional love Lord. Your love keeps me sane.

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, hallelujah

through it all/hillsong

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salamat gotpinoy.com

it was january 30, 2008 when i got this email from gotpinoy.com

Congratulations Lex,

Thank you for your continuous support of Philippine Blog Contest from
GotPinoy.com. We’ve chosen your blog
https://brokenman.wordpress.com to reward as our January Winner of
1,000.00 Pesos Gift Certificate for our Monthly Giveaway Prize.
Please confirm your name, address, and phone so we can process
your prize.

my first reaction was “is this real? hmm… could be a hoax”. a few days after i got another email saying the same thing and then some sms’ and offlines from a certain “oliver david” of gotpinoy.com.

i was able to talk with him thrice (online)  and there was even a time when he got pissed off with my endless questions that he resorted to saying “its okay lex, if you have doubts, we can just give the prize to another blogger” 🙂

so to make the long story short, i’ve decided to make the necessary confirmation and the gift certificate, SM Gold worth P1,000, was then delivered through myAyala.com.

so to gotpinoy.com and oliver david, thank you for “randomly” picking my blog. i became a thousand peso richer 🙂 yipee!!

and thanks to “you” for the picture. wanna go shopping with me? 🙂 we could eat siomai and chicken after. he he he.

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